class daze.

today was a class day. what that means is that i only get to spend about half of my day with jude. sometimes i am excited to get out of the house, and although i miss that sweet little face, it is nice to have a fun evening to myself. other times (MOST of the time) i am not at all thrilled about the prospect of a two hour and 45 minute class session that jude cannot attend. it seems that i want to bring him along with me everywhere these days, and i don't see this abating anytime soon. he is getting easier to take out, not that traveling is any more fun for him, but the overall experience of bringing him with me is much less of a hassle. he can now interact with his environment and i just love showing the world off to him. i am especially excited for the warmer days and the greener days when i will be able to show off nature. but for now we are mostly confined to indoor places and i am a slave to attendance policies and writing essays. this semester isn't too bad, a lot of writing, but that's what i love best. the one class that i go to on thursday nights is rock documentaries and it's great. and even though i got to watch probably the most interesting documentary of the semester (the US vs john lennon!), i was missing my baby bunches. and here's what he was up to while i was away...



climbing stairs! for goodness sake! is he already this grown up? i got to stop in and visit with deenie and baby holden for a few minutes this evening and as i was cradling that tiny, one-month-old baby in my arms i thought how crazy it is that it goes by so fast. i tried to imagine holden 7 months from now, jude's age and size... and then i tried to imagine 7 months earlier when jude was holden's age and size... i am barely hanging on the memory of his fragility, the way his skin felt like soft paper, how i was too afraid to even change his diaper until a couple of days after he was home... i mean, was jude really THIS tiny just over half of a year ago?!


what will i think when he's turning 18?!?

for now, i am content with him fitting comfortably between daddy and mommy in the bed at night...

with being able to smell his sweet milk breath as it warms my cheek, and with snuggling him to death while he's still too young to protest. we took a three hour nap together today and i felt so at home next that tiny body and slept so soundly. it definitely made it hard to leave him this afternoon. but i did get a lot of shopping done at the whole foods market before class, and i am so excited for all the new recipes i get to try and new foods jude gets to try over the next couple of months!

and now i am going to work on my poetry explication and my newest personal reading list...